today, i was sitting in my living room, listening to the second disc of the marie antoinette soundtrack, which involves harpsichord goodness and piano and such (taber, check it out!)
i asked myself the same question i've been asking myself for a while
"what am i doing here?"
this time, i felt the start of an answer
i'm here for my family and friends, and so i asked, "well how exactly does that work? how can you be here for them when they're so far away?"
because i need to find a way to make my life something they understand and value, to do something valuable for the world that the people i care about live in, to make this moment and the next just a little bit, if not a lot, better
so i remembered a bad book i read in ann arbor at a book shop that said, cancers are the most likely to really do something that changes the world
i remembered how my sister, who is so terrifyingly smart, told me that i was smarter than her, maybe (the maybe added of course because she doesn't want me to get egotistical)
i thought of a melody being played in a house i was sitting (housesitting that is) in ann arbor, and it felt so long ago, yet still tasted like fresh fruit in the sun
thought of the reason that i cam ehere and how i've been neglecting it, a tiny, broken-winged dove that cried only softly, i am here to learn to tell stories better and how others tell stories and why they matter
because i believe they are important, and how and who and where they get told is important, and that we don't see them strongly enough
so that's a start
(advice needed!: should i spend the summer in ann arbor, working a part time/full time job and writing/drawing/hanging out,
should i spend the summer in indiana taking a permaculture program, hanging with my friend s, and working only for 2 months at my part time writing-related job, or
should i go to michigan to vacate, come back for permaculture class, and then go back to michigan, and then come back to indiana for the job for 2 months?
vote via comments, please)
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- My name is Jeremy, and I create, research, and teach comics and graphic narratives (and their overlap with anthropology, ethnography, media, communication, etc.). I am also a textile artists, and I am often up for doing work freelance/by commission -- ask me and see. And now, a poem: watching stars collide, i breathe a sigh of wonder; life so short, yet so long
4 comments:
summer in ann arbor was always really fun, and i have no idea what permaculture is, but it sounds like something worthwhile and interesting that you would love...so i guess i'm voting for option C? but then the writing-related job is tempting too. i guess i vote for "all of the above" (i'm useless, i know) and i will be checking out that soundtrack, thank you very much!...and is there any other good music you can recommend? i've hit something of a dry spell lately. :/
lately i've been into maximo park, yann tiersen-les retrouvailles (import), sam roberts, nina nastasia, folklore, and sarah harmer
but you'll have to check out their websites first, as i don't know that you'll necessary like em
i'm going to go with C, if only because I'm assuming a) you have a job set up in Indiana and you don't have one in MI and b) you also have available friends and a permaculture program, whatever the hell that is. MI is good for a vacation or 2.
"Renowned environmentalist Dr. David Suzuki has stated: 'What permaculturists are doing is the most important activity that any group is doing on the planet.'"
Oh, ok.
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