the night of the full moon
i threw a party and invited 12 people, only 4 of whom showed, 3 of whom for more than 15 minutes, although i'll indicate as well that the 4th was soaked in mr. pibb by the time he got to my house and thus couldn't stay long...
so it was ok, but i realize how lame my friends are...how much they just put up walls and excuses rather than actually getting involved
and how very much i miss the people with whom i can just say random things or go hang out with by indicating that i'd like to hang out (and if they are unable, they simply say so, rather than feigning some excuse)....how very much i miss the people that i can actually love
(yes, cheese factor rising, but whatthefuck, there's no one here i can say i actually could talk about this shit with)
anyway, i'm lame, i miss my friends/family, i miss waking up and actually wanting to go out into the world, and i also have way too much to do before i can be mopey
also, here's a pic from a halloween party i went to last weekend
3 comments:
hrm...this seems like one of those things you shouldn't put on your blog...are you SURE no one in Indiana reads this?
Also, I sort of wonder what you would do if you weren't in grad school...I mean, I've got MY plan B, but what's yours?
And don't say vineyards in France, cuz we both know that ain't happening --
whatthef?
why would i not want to put this up? i think you underestimate how talkative/close my dept is...probly 3/4 of em know i'm irritated by their constant retreating to the library every day of the week and that's just cuz i talked to two people about it...news travels fast
also, i have backup plans, but i don't need to have a clearly laid out plan--the world is not grad school, nor is it any life, and there are many paths to choose from
even when i disavow france as a potential route (which i won't)
call me idealistic or naive, but i'm trying to figure out how much i really want to continue with a phd and talking it out is the way i think
...grr...you logic-robot you
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